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Sunday, June 04, 2006

''fallin into e deepest darkness of e world ''

*(( haahaa))*
on fri (2/6).. it's rather a BUsy dae !
wow!! it's so surpisinG tt i'm bUSY !!*
dunod y.. i felt tt tis yr i'm rather free den busy !!
i guess it's 80% free den busy ..
hmmm.. tt dae was reali cool ..
y ??
cos wif mi " Big Daddy's family " again ma ..
actuli cos of them i felt a sense of an wei lo ..
hmmm.. thanks oO ..
" big DaDDy's family membEr''
-xie xie ni men-
hope tt tis sense of an wei'll oways open their doors fer mi ..
reali ~~
DUN CLOSED IT ~~
haha..
actuli i nod pretty well wat kinda of person i'm la..
haha..
kinda of hacked care everything .. every1 ..
kinda off dun gif a damn de person..
forgotten abt their presence .. their feeling ..
i'm oways lid fallin in tons n tons of different kind of series or drama show.
kinda of hard to chat wif mi ..
cos of limitd topics type..

reali bad rite ...
yup !!! i'm reali bad !!

i oso wishes tt i'm a gd listener to friends
oso can kind of free msg them ask them :
'[ how r u lateli]'
'[feelin gd ma ?]'
tis wad's i oways wanted to do..
but i dare nt .. i'm oways hesitating..
feelin so unsure is it oks to msg ?
oways irresoluted.
ended up i'l gif up tt tots..
kinda of cowards bax ..
ever since wen i started to hv tis kind of feelings ..
i started hidding ..
hidding mi concern towrds ppl
buildin up a visible wall ..
do not allowed ppl to come closer to mi ..
nor mi getting closer to ppl..
haha.. so werid bax ..
den i'll get e whole hell of e free time ..
oways askin myself it's rite to '' reject ppl concern n their caring ?'
m i lid tis ?? m i suppose to carry on lid tt ?
FOREVER ..
haha..
well i found a way ..
to escape of rather hidding..
is to make myself watch thousand n tons of endless show , drama ..
jux to forget tt irritating feelings ..

altot i nod tt there r ppl out der fer mi to turn to even if we nv keep in close contact..
but i jux dun nod how to turn to them ..
in mi mind's seems be ocuppied by e devils not angels ..
keep on giving mi bad outcome which reali discourage mi alot alot ..
thus, i accepted it !!
escapin from reality n hide !

so sorry all mi friends ..
cant even provide e beri basic care n concern a friend shld hv..
shld hv it wan ..

wow !!
where do i hv all e courage to write mi feelin outs ?
u nod i felt kinda puttin down tt stone !!
hahaha.. shld be angels take pity on mi bax //
nw seriosuly fightin against e devils bax..
tt's gt e power ..
hao su fu wor !!!
tian ar ~~ hao su fu wor ...

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